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[databoner]

Annie's in costume?

[glowsferatu]

if youre going to sell clothes you need a model
you can consider it something of a marketing tactic
i asked she accepted and now shes walking the aisles in a bright feathered gown i made
with a headpiece enough to also disguise her

[databoner]

Will she also be there tomorrow?

[glowsferatu]

of course she will
i havent suddenly decided to fire her

[databoner]

I will see you there tomorrow.

[glowsferatu]

thats a little transparent dont you think

[databoner]

...

Are you not aware of how I feel about Annie by now? I am not exactly being subtle.

[glowsferatu]

i mean aside from one incident of stalking this is really the first youve hinted to it at all
then suddenly you wouldnt be shaming yourself to attend because shes there
no that really isnt at all subtle
but more self-aware then i honestly expected from you

either way it isnt like im not used to just being a shroud for someones ulterior motive

[databoner]

You thought I would be less aware...? Do I seem the type to be oblivious?

Regardless, I'm attending to see the both of you. Originally I would just make plans to see you later, but seeing Annie in a costume is amusing enough that I feel like I would be missing out if I didn't attend.

[glowsferatu]

you say that as though it would have been the first time ive caught you being stubbornly oblivious in social matters
its more the way you just out and said it
that isnt the sort of information id expect you to volunteer without it first being teased out

but im still not especially enthused to the prospect that your primary motivation is laughing at my work

[databoner]

I don't like being considered oblivious in any way. So please take note that if I am ever being stubbornly oblivious it is not intentionally so.

As for volunteering the information, I feel no need to keep that sort of thing a secret. Again, I thought I was being obvious, anyway. Although, I have a feeling that Annie isn't entirely aware of how I feel, and if I am to eventually get over this, I need to first accept it with myself first. Then, I can move past it.

Who said I would be laughing? I would be going to admire.

[glowsferatu]

you initially said that amusement mandated your presence
that isnt anything like admiration and amusement for the model would unambiguously distract from admiration toward the dress

but is moving past it your goal
because if so youre certainly going about it backwards

[databoner]

Can one not find something equally admirable and amusing?

... I don't know fully, if moving past is my goal. But I know it's something I probably should work on. Eventually.

[glowsferatu]

i dont know if equal measures would be entirely possible
probably not at the same time at least
unless its meant to be funny which is kind of the problem here

so from what im understanding
you are currently considering moving past it as a possibility
while also being in clear pursuit
that just seems so
i dont know
safe

lets pretend im not over a week late OR you can drop this

[databoner]

Is there something wrong with safe?

[glowsferatu]

it seems so dispassionate

[databoner]

Ah right, I forgot about how passionate I am.

[glowsferatu]

in most contexts it may have its place but its antithetical to romance
its a cold and uninvested approach
communicating that while youd prefer one result you dont really care either way

[databoner]

My problem is that I don't know what I want.

I know it would be unwise and illogical to date someone while here, particularly someone not from my own world. But that contests against my present feelings.

I still have a desire to see her and spend time with her, but I have a feeling things will become more serious if I continue. Perhaps, it's worth the risk?

[glowsferatu]

opening your heart will always be a risk
but if youre going to do it halfway then you may as well not do it at all

that risk isnt really lessened with someone from your own home either
that comes with its own collection of dangers and consequences

but even if it should end in loss or loneliness
there are always much worse ways for it to end
and what may be had loses no worth or meaning because it can end
everything ends anyway

[databoner]

...Everything does end eventually, doesn't it?

[Somehow, the least assuring thing she had to say became the most.]

Alright. I'll give it a shot. At least she won't judge me quite as harshly, given that I doubt she has dated anyone else either...

[glowsferatu]

[ of course, on some level she's also moping a bit. this is really a hell of a time for her to be giving relationship advice. ]

and however it may end
perhaps you will be lucky enough to part ways amicably

[databoner]

[Sorry Kanaya, but you're the only one who's really privy to he and Annie being almost kind of a thing.]

Thank you, Kanaya.

[glowsferatu]

dont mistake it for well-wishes
youll have to make that luck on your own
expecting it to come from any other side will only end in doom

[databoner]

Is there a problem with simply thanking someone for helping them sort out their thoughts? I wasn't expecting a wish of good luck from you.