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nah, never met one before.
i'm guessing this is something else that i should start believing in

you may well have
there are at least two imports of the status that i can name

[ and one of them is rose. ]

but if youre thinking of gods in the religious sense then youre approaching it from the wrong angle
it isnt something to just believe in
its just something that is whether you believe it or not
worship as you like but it would seem a little silly to me

Edited 2014-10-30 02:19 (UTC)

i'm thinking gods in any kind of sense. it's all mythology is what i thought.
i'll add it to the list of things i've learned since coming here, but i'm not really the type to worship.

mythology isnt exclusively distinct from reality either
some of it may have once been true prior to its relegation to legend
and sometimes you may find that your life has become entangled within a narrative that may ultimately grow into a future mythology
still i cant fault you for that decision
there are very few gods ive known i would be inclined to worship

[ because again, rose. ]

don't know enough on the subject to say one way or the other, i just have a vague recollection of mythology existing. don't know how i know it though.

the vestigial remains of what had been robbed from you perhaps
maybe it wasnt so complete as it seems
i dont know that a person could operate as a complete blank slate

it's never really been a complete block. i can remember things, i just don't remember how i know them. some stuff is familiar, some stuff is completely new to me. you get used to it after a while but it was really annoying at first.

i could see how it would be inconvenient
though less inconvenient than it would have the potential to be
still
memory is important
i cant imagine losing my own

yeah, i wish i had mine. maybe there's some way of undoing what wicked did, but if there is i don't know it.

i suppose it will depend on whether your memories have been fully erased or simply repressed
either way i cant imagine theres any way to open it back up without allowing someone access to your head
that isnt an idea most people would be fond of
i can imagine it would be exponentially so for you

they've only got a block on them, that we know for sure. the grief serum would bring them back sometimes, if you got stung by a griever. glimpses of stuff from our pasts. it's how tommy figured out the maze.
you're right though, i'm not too thrilled with the idea of letting anyone tinker in there again.

no i dont expect you would
the return from psychic compromise isnt enough worth the risk
not when it takes an operator
and you can never be sure if that operator should be trusted

can't think of a single person i'd trust enough to mess with my brain again.
maybe it's for the best. the guy i was before the maze may not even exist anymore.

when youve had to encounter and consider divergences to yourself often that isnt a difficult conclusion to come to terms with
even with your memories you are someone different than you were years ago
in a way it could be nice to not have something to look back on

maybe.
as it is i'm not getting them back any time soon so its not use crying over spilled milk.

it isnt
we just get a mop instead
save our tears for worthier occasions

or not cry at all. i've got a reputation to keep you know

you arent the only one
but theres a difference between not letting anyone see it and not crying at all
though that difference is mostly which is a lie or not

it's just easier not to.

in the long run probably

maybe when all is said and done there will be a good time to.

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