I HAVEN'T GLIMPSED ANY WRETCHEDNESS. IF ANYTHING HAS CHANGED IT'S THAT YOU'RE LESS TOLERANT OF MY SHIT. BUT YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN ABSURDLY TOLERANT OF MY SHIT SO FRANKLY THIS DEVELOPMENT ONLY EVENS IT OUT TO REASONABLE LEVELS OF TOLERANCE OF MY SHIT BY ANY OBJECTIVE STANDARDS. AND YOU SEEM MORE ANGRY TOO BUT SELFISHLY I HOPE BEING PISSED OFF AT A LOT OF THINGS THAT SUCK DOESN'T DISQUALIFY A PERSON FROM ALL WORTHINESS OF LOVE OR RELATIONSHIPS IN GENERAL.
BUT YOU KNOW I'LL GRANT YOU THAT, MAYBE I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU AND IT'S ACTUALLY AS BAD AS YOU'RE SAYING. THAT'S STILL NOT HOW IT WORKS. MOST OF US HAVE OUR OWN SICKENING FLAWS AND ARE FUCKED UP ON SOME LEVEL. BEING LOVED BY SOMEONE DOESN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH BEING NOT FUCKED UP. IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU EARN OR LOSE THE RIGHT TO. IN FACT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO DO THAT. YOU COULDN'T GO AROUND LIKE, HEY ROSE, I'M A GOOD PERSON, SO I'VE EARNED THE RIGHT TO YOUR LOVE AND YOU HAVE TO LOVE ME NOW. SO HOW THE FUCK IS THE REVERSE SUPPOSED TO BE TRUE? IT ALL ONLY EVER COMES DOWN TO HOW THE OTHER PERSON FEELS ABOUT YOU.
SHIT. I'M NOT ACTUALLY TRYING TO CONVINCE YOU THAT YOU FUCKED UP OR YOU NEED TO GET BACK TOGETHER. THAT'S NOT WHAT I STARTED THIS TO DO, ANYWAY. BUT I CAN'T READ YOU SAYING ALL OF THESE THINGS AND LET IT GO. IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE TRYING TO PUNISH YOURSELF WITH ALL OF THIS.
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IF ANYTHING HAS CHANGED IT'S THAT YOU'RE LESS TOLERANT OF MY SHIT.
BUT YOU'VE ALWAYS BEEN ABSURDLY TOLERANT OF MY SHIT SO FRANKLY THIS DEVELOPMENT ONLY EVENS IT OUT TO REASONABLE LEVELS OF TOLERANCE OF MY SHIT BY ANY OBJECTIVE STANDARDS.
AND YOU SEEM MORE ANGRY TOO BUT SELFISHLY I HOPE BEING PISSED OFF AT A LOT OF THINGS THAT SUCK DOESN'T DISQUALIFY A PERSON FROM ALL WORTHINESS OF LOVE OR RELATIONSHIPS IN GENERAL.
BUT YOU KNOW I'LL GRANT YOU THAT, MAYBE I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU AND IT'S ACTUALLY AS BAD AS YOU'RE SAYING.
THAT'S STILL NOT HOW IT WORKS. MOST OF US HAVE OUR OWN SICKENING FLAWS AND ARE FUCKED UP ON SOME LEVEL.
BEING LOVED BY SOMEONE DOESN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH BEING NOT FUCKED UP. IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU EARN OR LOSE THE RIGHT TO. IN FACT IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO DO THAT. YOU COULDN'T GO AROUND LIKE, HEY ROSE, I'M A GOOD PERSON, SO I'VE EARNED THE RIGHT TO YOUR LOVE AND YOU HAVE TO LOVE ME NOW. SO HOW THE FUCK IS THE REVERSE SUPPOSED TO BE TRUE?
IT ALL ONLY EVER COMES DOWN TO HOW THE OTHER PERSON FEELS ABOUT YOU.
SHIT. I'M NOT ACTUALLY TRYING TO CONVINCE YOU THAT YOU FUCKED UP OR YOU NEED TO GET BACK TOGETHER.
THAT'S NOT WHAT I STARTED THIS TO DO, ANYWAY.
BUT I CAN'T READ YOU SAYING ALL OF THESE THINGS AND LET IT GO.
IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YOU'RE TRYING TO PUNISH YOURSELF WITH ALL OF THIS.