So that's not frightening. Maybe, in senses, not preferrable, but I never expected otherwise.
Friends are an allowance. Anything more is unnecessary, and I don't know if in that kind of aftermath I'd know what to do with myself. So I'm a coward, too. I don't want to find out.
[ she's scared to do that, because what happens if it matters that much? she's always been scared of that to an extent. when people matter. when she can't do what she needs to do. when she stumbles, and there's nothing there to steady her when for some reason she's come to expect their will be.
so there's willful blindness she indulges in.
because that, in her coward's way, is easier, when caring is enough to make her fall. ]
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So that's not frightening. Maybe, in senses, not preferrable, but I never expected otherwise.
Friends are an allowance. Anything more is unnecessary, and I don't know if in that kind of aftermath I'd know what to do with myself. So I'm a coward, too. I don't want to find out.
[ she's scared to do that, because what happens if it matters that much? she's always been scared of that to an extent. when people matter. when she can't do what she needs to do. when she stumbles, and there's nothing there to steady her when for some reason she's come to expect their will be.
so there's willful blindness she indulges in.
because that, in her coward's way, is easier, when caring is enough to make her fall. ]